I guess this is really just a brainstorming post. It's my first. There are so many things i want to talk about from the truly awesome people I know, to the things I'm learning as I go along, as I think they might be useful to someone else.

At times, i just need a place to state things intelligently--form my thoughts as though I'm talking to someone else. Sometimes just that activity helps me heal, or re-group. Some things I'm going to write about here because they're hard, and saying them will get me past some major hurdles, like the ways that people unwittingly communicate that rape or violence is somehow the victim's fault.

There's an interesting art community here where I live, that is quite different from other places. It's interesting to see what this sort of thing says about people as a whole in different places.

Sex work is the same. Whether we're dancers or escorts, there's lots to consider and talk about.

There's activism. How I can be more active... one of those things being finding better ways to communicate and advocate for all of the wonderful individuals who identify as anything but the Great Straight White Hetero Ideal. My friend S. points out that we women folk have a lot to thank the BGLT community for when it comes to the rights we do have--but people don't seem to notice that. And she's right.

Which brings me to why I identify as straight in the first place, and what I need to do about it, and what I can do for others with it.

There's cat allergies, fibroids, cervical dysplasia, (and my herbal remedies), breast tumors, HIV, and more with the herbs. There's lots of stuff. And then there's me: way too wordy... and the people I admire most, who are able to communicate clearly, succinctly... I wanna be more like that.

There's me. I don't get to talk to grown-ups much. So this is me practicing and working on being a better me, both for myself and out of a sense of obligation to be a better human for the great human good.

There's little things, like community garage sales, the pointlessness of buying things and why garbage picking is fun. There's creative endeavors, and saving money to get by. There's introversion and gardening. There's weeds and weeding. There's all sorts of things to talk about... including vain attempts to ovulate by the moon, and the illusions we hold about ourselves.

Oh, so much to talk about and I just hope that someone maybe offers up their well-thought out, informative two cents, too.